Writeous Thoughts with Jackie

I Killed A Girl

I killed a girl who walked around wanting everyone to like her.

I killed a girl who was filled with self-doubt and low self-esteem.

I killed a girl who would please others before she pleased herself.

I killed a girl who put everyone’s needs before her own.

I killed a girl who kept her emotions bottled up like a shaken bottle of coke.

I killed a girl who cried in her pillow at night so no one ever knew she was sad or angry.

I killed a girl; but I birthed a woman.

I birthed a woman who doesn't make friends she just treasures the ones she has!

I birthed a woman who doesn't do doubts and has enough self-esteem to fail and succeed

but can celebrate both!

I birthed a woman who can please herself better than anyone else ever could!

I birthed a woman who can tell you to wait or go away because

she's in the middle of something!

I birthed a woman who can wear her emotions on her sleeve because after all –

it's her damn sleeve!

I birthed a woman that will love you hard but can hate you harder and still sleep good at night!

I killed a girl; but I birthed a woman!

If I Passed Away Today

If I passed away today…

I’d have many unspoken thoughts;

I’d have many unlabored tasks; and

Many battles left not fought.

If I passed away today…

There are so many to whom I wished to speak;

People that I have met and those I wished to meet;

There are ancestors with stories that I still have not heard;

There are children with lessons to learn that I still have not conferred;

If I passed away today…

Would I be able to rest?

Would I be able to go in peace; if my purpose had not been met?

Today, I’ve been granted another chance to live;

Another day to achieve my purpose, to deliver what God has for me to give.